I remember reading about an airplane used by missionaries that gained two-hundred extra pounds in weight since it was manufactured sixteen years previously. Nobody knows where the extra weight came from.

“We’ve been joking about the only plane in Weight Watchers,” said the pilot. “But it’s really a serious matter. Unless we can shed the extra weight, the plane’s utility is seriously limited. We just can’t carry an extra two-hundred pounds and have space for the cargo we need to deliver.”

Many of us, like the missionaries’ airplane, are carrying extra weight that can stop us from being fully functional and fully alive. For some, the extra weight may be physical, which can lead to ill health. For others, it may be unresolved emotional or spiritual issues. For example, if I am carrying an overload of guilt, fear, grief, hurt, anger, or resentment, or have some unconfessed sin or unresolved addiction in my life. Any of these can keep me bogged down and hinder my being fully productive.

God is not out to clobber us because of these things, but he wants us—with his help and that of supportive friends—to resolve and overcome our issues so that we can get rid of the weight that holds us back and thereby free us to “run with patience the race set before us” and win!

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, please help me to find and trim the “fat” in my life—those things that so easily beset me and keep me from becoming and doing all that you have envisioned for me to be and do. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully, in Jesus’ name, amen.”

1. Hebrews 12:1 (NIV).

Fred is an alcoholic. Betsy is a drug addict. Bernard is a sexaholic. What causes Fred, Betsy and Bernard to act out this way?

Certainly we all have a bent towards sinning because we happen to have a sinful nature. However, in addition we act out in destructive ways because we have been further damaged emotionally (mostly in childhood) through rejection, emotional abandonment, controlling love, and many other ways—the bottom line of which is love deprivation. As a result, we are left in pain, feeling angry, resentful, hurt, fearful, guilty, shame-based, insecure, and so on.

It’s the unresolved pain that drives us to act out. We do it to medicate or anesthetize our inner pain and emptiness. One reason an alcoholic drinks, for example, is to deaden the pain of his/her loneliness, hurt or anger, and to avoid facing these painful feelings. The food addict is seeking to fill the empty hole in his/her heart caused by love deprivation. The workaholic keeps forever busy/active to avoid feeling the pain of feeling unloved. The sex addict is not a highly sexual person, but one who uses sex to avoid facing the fact that he/she doesn’t feel loved and is looking for love in all the wrong places.

The beginning cure for overcoming these problems is to feel and face one’s inner pain and allow it to drive us into recovery. The destructive acting-out ways are symptoms of unresolved inner problems. Among other things, God wants to heal us of emotional blindness so we can see the truth and be healed within—to heal us from the inside out. If we treat only the symptoms—our acting out—this will only lead to increased problems farther down the road.

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, help me to see and face every problem I have, deal with it and resolve any hidden causes, and get my ‘love cup’ (love needs) filled in healthy ways, so I won’t seek to deaden my emptiness by acting out self-destructive ways or seek to get my ‘love cup’ filled with the wrong kind of love. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus’ name, amen.”

1. Jesus in Luke 4:18 (NIV)

True, I wasn’t responsible for my coming into the world, nor was I responsible for my upbringing. However, unless I am mentally impaired, I am totally responsible for what I do about my past, what I become, what I do, and for how I choose to behave and live my life.

The following is how one person expressed how many people in today’s world view responsibility:

“If a man cuts his finger off while slicing salami at work, he blames the restaurant.

“If you smoke three packs of cigarettes a day for 40 years and die of lung cancer, your family blames the tobacco company.

“If your neighbor crashes into a tree while driving home drunk, he blames the bartender [or the tree for being in the way].

“If your grandchildren are brats without manners, you blame television.

“If your friend is shot by a deranged madman, you blame the gun manufacturer.

“And if a crazed person breaks into the cockpit and tries to kill the pilot at 35,000 feet, and the passengers kill him instead, the mother of the deceased blames the airline.

“I must have lived too long to understand the world as it is anymore. So, if I die while my old, wrinkled face is parked in front of this computer, I want you to blame Bill Gates!”²

What we need to teach and emphasize today from the cradle to the grave—and from the highest leadership positions in the land to the most humble positions no matter what these may be—is personal responsibility!

As Roy Smith said, “The ability to accept responsibility is the measure of the man.” And as today’s Scripture reminds us, all are responsible to and before God.

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, thank you that you will do for me what I cannot do, such as giving Jesus to die for my sins, but will not do anything for me that I am able to do for myself. Help me to learn to always be responsible and (if you have children) train my children by my example to learn responsibility. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully, in Jesus’ name, amen.”

1. Romans 14:11-12 (NKJV).

2. Author and source unknown.

As a child in school in Australia Gordon had a problem with dyslexia, but nobody was able to diagnose his problem at the time. For years his mother took him to speech therapy, and he practiced saying, “Thora thrust thick thistles through the thinning hedge,” five thousand times!

What turned Gordon’s life around was his fourth grade primary school teacher, Miss Higgins, who called the class to order when they laughed at Gordon’s attempt to read before the class. You could imagine how terrible Gordon must have felt every time other kids poked fun at him because of his inability to read. I would have felt devastated. But thank God for an understanding teacher who said to the class: “Do not laugh at his reading. One day Gordon will be the best reader in the whole school.” Little did Miss Higgins or his school mates realize just who Gordon would become. And little did Miss Higgins realize that her encouragement planted the seed to motivate Gordon towards an extremely fruitful and productive life.

Today Gordon is known as the Reverend Dr., The Honorable Gordon Moyes, MHR.

Besides being the senior minister and superintendent of the very influential Wesley Central Mission in Sydney, Australia, Gordon has been a radio broadcaster for 44 years, the host of a weekly TV program on the National Nine Network for 26 years, and is a Member of the House of Representatives in the state government of New South Wales. Gordon is still dyslexic and still mirror reads God as dog—which presents quite a problem for a minister of religion!

In his appeal to the state government for children with dyslexia Rep. Moyes said, “The effect of dyslexia in society possibly includes unemployment, poverty, alcoholism, drug abuse and dependency and even family breakdown, and as a result dyslexic people are over represented in the prison population, are more likely to drop out of school, and often withdraw from their friends and family or attempt suicide.

“Children with dyslexia often have high IQs but poor reading and writing skills. They are often sent out of classes or to the back of the room as they become distracted because of the frustrating nature of their condition. You can understand my concern for such children of our members or in our Sunday Schools. Dyslexia is a disability, and the Government should supply support for such students.”²

May we all remember Gordon’s story and always be an encourager to children, teens, and adults who struggle with any kind of a handicap.

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, thank you for every teacher and all who give the gift of encouragement to those who struggle with life’s handicaps. Thank you, too, for all who encouraged me when I needed it most. Please help me always to be sensitive, loving, kind and encouraging to any and all fellow strugglers who come into my life and/or who cross my path. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully, in Jesus’ name, amen.”

1. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 (NIV).

2. http://www.cdp.org.au/main.asp.

The effluvium (stench) in Joy’s home office was putrid. It was about the same as when we had a dead rat in a wall in the last home where we lived. Leaving the windows open day and night didn’t alleviate the wretched smell. Burning several scented candles in the room didn’t help either. Joy and I must have looked a sight crawling around the room on the floor sniffing the walls to see if we could find the place where the rat or rats had been trapped and died. We emptied drawers and sniffed in them. We sniffed in the closet. We sniffed the bookshelves. All our sniffing efforts to find and eliminate the culprit were in vain. We even had a termite inspector crawl around in our attic thinking the offensive culprit may have died in the ceiling.

Then lo and forsooth, a few days later, Joy happened to be cleaning her desk and there, right under our nose, under a pile of papers was the sickening culprit. No, it wasn’t a rat. It was an Easter egg left there by one of our grandkids some weeks before. What a mess! What a stink! We had a great laugh at our folly!

Seriously, have you ever noticed that many of our personal problems are caused by our failure to clean up our lifestyle? And how we search everywhere for a hook upon which to hang the blame for our problems . . . and all the while the problem is right under our nose?

Speaking personally, more often than not, I am the main cause of the difficulties I have. What others have done to me may or may not be a problem, but how I react is always my responsibility—and to the degree that I overreact, that is always my problem. In other words what bothers me is my problem. And the answer to resolving my problem so often lies within myself.

Difficult to see, I know, and even harder to admit, but the fact remains I am my own biggest problem and as long as I play the blame-game, I will never overcome or resolve my problems.

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, in every conflict in which I happen to find myself, please confront me with the reality of what I have contributed or am contributing to it. Help me to accept responsibility for my part and resolve that—and commit and trust to you any others that may be involved. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully, in Jesus’ name, amen.”

1. Luke 10:29 (KJV).

Thank you, Juan, for the courage to admit that you have a problem with lust. This is the first step in the recovery from any problem. Next, while it may be difficult to do, it is important to admit that when lust causes one’s life to be out of control, he is a sex addict.

Third, understand that many, if not most, addictions start as a means to avoid facing the pain of some inner unresolved issue. It is the “fruit of a deeper root.”

Fourth, I urge you not only to confess your sin to God which you have said that you have done many times, but also to a trusted, safe male friend—one who will never betray your confidence—and keep yourself accountable to him. As God’s Word says, “Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.”¹

Fifth, I understand that you have already confessed your sexual sins to God, but you also need to earnestly ask God to help you to see if there are any unresolved issues in your life that are driving you to act out in lust and sexual sins. For example, lust that controls us is often a result of repressed love, so you may still unconsciously be looking for the “mother love” you never received as a child. Or you could be unconsciously angry at your mother and taking out your anger on other women. Whatever is the root cause of your problem God knows what it is so I encourage you to ask God to show you what it is.

Sixth, if possible, it could be a great help for you to become a member in a SA (Sex Anonymous) group, just like AA (Alcohol Anonymous), SA is organized to help people to be freed from their addiction.

Seventh, I also strongly encourage you to get some fine Christian counseling to help you discover and resolve the hidden cause or causes of your sex addiction.

Finally, the first thing every day be sure to commit and trust your life and way to God. He can make a much better job of your life than you can. Following is a suggested prayer:

“Again, today, Dear God I commit and trust my life and way to you. Please guide me in the way I need to go, help me to overcome my problem with lust and sexual sins, and become the man of God you want me to be. Also, I am available, please use me today to be ‘as Jesus’ in some way to every life I have contact with. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus’ name, amen.”

NOTE: I have quite a few articles on recovery so I suggest you go to https://learning.actsweb.org/articles/Recovery.php and read some of these articles. Especially read the article “Lady of the Night” and “Adultery: Caught in the Act,” Parts I and II.

1. James 5:16 (NIV).

In this, our final part in this series on “Fully Living—Fully Loving,” we ask the question, how do we remove the barriers in our life that hinder or block our learning how to fully live and fully love?

First, we need to recognize that we have a problem—and admit it. As long as we deny the truth about ourselves, there is no healing or recovery. So I need to admit, “I have a problem. I need help.”

Second, read good books, listen to CDs and tapes, attend classes, seminars and retreats that deal with personal growth and recovery. Learn all you can but, remember, intellectual knowledge doesn’t produce healing or recovery, it just helps to understand our problem and know how and where to look for help.

Third, realize that we get damaged in damaged relationships and get healed in healing relationships. Every one of us—single or married—needs a soul-brother for men or a soul-sister for women. That is, we need someone who won’t judge us, put us down, try to fix us or give us unsolicited advice—someone with whom we feel totally safe so we can be totally open and honest, and feel free to share our deepest emotions (negative as well as positive), as well as our joys, sorrows, successes, sins and failures and thus be known for who we truly are—warts and all.

We all need someone who knows us fully and loves and accepts us exactly as we are. This is what frees us to change and begin to experience healing in the deepest parts of our personality. Furthermore, only to the degree that we are known can we ever feel loved. Nobody can love a mask and nobody can ever feel loved who hides behind a mask. As long as we stay in hiding, we can never experience healing and grow to become a whole and loving person.

Fourth, if we have deeply repressed emotions we may need, as I did, intense skilled therapy. We each need to find the type of therapy that works for us, and a therapist with whom we can work. What works for me may not work for you and vice-versa. Group therapy can also be very helpful.

Fifth, many of us will need help to learn not only how to get in touch with our feelings, but also how to express them in healthy and creative ways. Learn from the life of Jesus. When he was sad, he wept.¹ When he was angry, he expressed his feelings. At times he did this verbally and when he found the money changers ripping people off in the temple, he got a whip and drove them out.² What we need to remember, however, is to always speak and act the truth in love.

Last and most important of all, learn to put God first in your life and seek his guidance and help for every area of your life. Learn how to pray effectively by praying the right prayers.³ Ask God to confront you with the truth about yourself. If you are serious about this, God will show you; but be prepared because it usually takes pain to break through our defenses. For me personally, only when my pain is greater than my fears am I able to get in touch with my inner pain. Remember as God’s Word says, “The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.”⁴ God’s Word also says, “Behold, You [God] desire truth in the inward parts, and in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom.”⁵

If you consistently follow these six principles, you too, will be well on the road to fully living and fully loving.

Suggested prayer: Dear God, please help me to be totally honest with you, with myself, and with at least one trusted friend and/or counselor, with all that is in my inner self. And please help me to get in touch with any and all unresolved guilt and/or repressed negative emotions, and learn how to express (‘get rid of’) these in creative ways so that every barrier in my life that blocks my fully living and fully loving will be removed. So help me God. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus name, amen.”

1. John 11:35.

2. John 2:14-16.

3. See “How to Pray Effectively” at http://tinyurl.com/kb62w.

4. Psalm 145:18.

5. Psalm 51:6 (NKJV).

Note: For further help, see articles on recovery at: www.actsweb.org/articles/Recovery.php

As I’ve often said, by the time I was five I had learned that “big men” don’t cry so I learned early in life to stuff and deny my emotions, and by the time I was thirty-five, I suffered from miserable hay fever, and had bursitis in both shoulders so that I couldn’t lift my arms above my shoulders without pain. Worse still, while I had plenty of friends, close relationships were non-existent. My marriage of 25 years turned out to be a disaster. Two repressed people living together do not make for a healthy relationship; in fact, they don’t have any kind of meaningful relationship. You live together alone apart; emotionally, that is.

Even though professionally I was doing okay, relationally I was at a loss. Furthermore, emotionally I constantly felt empty and had no idea what my problem was. I just knew I needed help. I had grown up with the belief that feelings weren’t important and couldn’t be trusted. In spite of this, I was so frustrated I got down on my knees and asked God to give me some feelings back anyhow. Whew, that prayer turned my world upside down and made praying for patience look like a Sunday school picnic. It took considerable pain to break through my cast-like defenses.

My recovery and emotional healing didn’t happen overnight, but the good news is that when I learned to break through my defenses and get in touch with my true emotions, and how to express them creatively, over time my life changed dramatically. Plus my physical wellbeing also improved dramatically.

Many of our physical ills can be symbolic. For instance, when I stuff my tears where do they go? For me they apparently expressed themselves in miserable hay fever which I suffered from for many years. I say this because when I was able to sob out years of painful hurt, I was healed of hay fever and have never suffered from it since. And when I learned to resolve years of buried hurt and anger, I was healed of the painful bursitis in my shoulders and have never had this pain recur. And when I was able to resolve lots of buried fear caused by painful hurts in the past, my interpersonal relationships improved out of sight.

In fact, I am physically healthier today than I was at half my age, and I am now in a very happy and fulfilling marriage. I feel that I am now well on the way to fully living and fully loving. My professional life happens to be very fulfilling also.

It may not sound refined, but the fact is that the feelings we stuff, stuff up our lives! Literally.

So you ask, how did you resolve all your personal issues? I wish I had a simple three-step program, but I don’t. I believe in miracles but not magic—miracles take a lot longer. There is no such thing as a quick fix. We take years to become what we are and don’t undo that overnight. However, the following are a few principles to help.

To be continued . . . .

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, as your Word instructs, please help me to: ‘get rid of my feelings of hatred [and all forms of unresolved anger]; stop pretending to be good outwardly, and be done with dishonesty, deception, envy, and fraud . . . and grow up into the fullness of my salvation.’ So help me God. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus name, amen.”

1. 1 Peter 2:1-2 (TLB)(NLT).

There’s an old story about a school teacher who injured his back and had to wear a plaster cast around the upper part of his body. It fit under his shirt and was not noticeable.

On the first day of the term, still with the cast under his shirt, he found himself assigned to the toughest students in school. Walking confidently into the rowdy classroom, he opened the window as wide as possible and then busied himself with desk work. When a strong breeze made his tie flap, he took the desk stapler and stapled the tie to his chest.

He had no trouble with discipline that term!

Sometimes it would be nice if life were that simple; that is, if we could wear a plaster cast around our heart so our feelings wouldn’t ever get hurt!

Not so. Life isn’t that simple. The problem is that when we put a cast or wall around our hurt feelings, that same cast also blocks out our warm and loving feelings! We turn into zombies.

We happen to be feeling beings. Can you imagine what life would be like without emotions? As another has said, it would be like playing a trombone with a stuck slide; that is, deadly dull and boring. The truth is that when our emotions are repressed we are characteristically bored with life.

I’ve led seminars and taught classes on relationships and recovery for many years and the number one complaint I hear from women on both sides of the Pacific is a variation on the theme, “My husband doesn’t understand my feelings and doesn’t share his.” No wonder so many relationships fall apart at the seams. Without being in touch with one’s inner self (his/her emotions) there is no intimacy and no real closeness. Such couples live together alone apart—and their relationship dies a little every day.

Furthermore, when we hide and subsequently bury our feelings, we never bury them dead but very much alive. In so doing, in one way or another they come back to taunt us. What we fail to talk out creatively, we inevitably act out destructively in one way or another. We can act out buried negative feelings by lashing out in anger or hostility at others and those we love the most. We can withdraw and go into silence when we are hurt or angry, which is an equally “dirty way to fight.” We can go into depression, suffer from anxiety attacks, ruin our relationships, set ourselves up to fail, and/or become physically ill. As John Powell put it, “When we bury our emotions, our stomach keeps score.” How true this is.

Furthermore, when our negative emotions are blocked and buried, it is impossible to fully live and fully love as we are so instructed by Jesus.

To be continued. . . .

“Dear God, I know that you have commanded that we, your followers, are to love one another. Please help me to live in harmony with your Word, so that I will be able to truly fully live and fully love. So help me God. Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus name, amen.”

1. John 13:34.

A Daily Encounter reader writes, “My new husband is in the military and recently left for his first deployment. I have been feeling very sad and mournful about his leaving. I felt like the Lord showed me that I feel abandoned. I know this is an irrational feeling, because I know he has been working so hard to get to this place for two years. He and I both feel like this is a calling on his life. I knew when I married him that he would be leaving for months at a time. But now that it is here, I can’t help but feel like his love for me is smaller than his love for his job. What steps should I take to deal with my abandonment issue?”

Dear Jane (not her real name), chances are your abandonment issue has little, if anything, to do with your husband being away. His absence has merely triggered unresolved issues from your past—in all probability (as you also implied) going back to your early relationship with your emotionally-uninvolved father and then reinforced by your former marriage. If this is true, you need effective counseling to help you resolve your “father wound.” If you don’t resolve this issue, you will be troubled by it in some way for the rest of your life. Furthermore, it is very important that you don’t project this feeling onto your husband, or the thing you fear you may unconsciously make to happen.

While your feelings of abandonment may seem to be irrational, they are actually logical in that they are authentic feelings based on your past experiences. This is why it is so important not to project these emotions onto your present situation and blame your husband for the way you feel. For those of us who have an abandonment issue, we need in-depth therapy to help us resolve our problem. It seems to me that if we have a “father wound,” we need to resolve this with a trusted male therapist and, if a “mother wound,” with a female therapist.

Unfortunately, there are no simple quick-fix answers. True, God can heal quickly, but more often than not he heals these wounds through healing relationships. That is, as we were damaged in damaging relationships, we are healed in healing relationships. The healing takes place over time as we are connected to a safe, loving, non-threatening counselor or very understanding friend who gets to know all about us and loves and accepts us just as we are—unconditionally and without strings attached. Little by little this experience reprograms our feelings to produce in us what counselors call “object constancy.” In other words we become secure in our love with our loved ones so that when we are separated from them, we no longer feel abandoned nor suffer from separation anxiety.

To start, tell God exactly how you feel and ask him to lead you to a safe counselor and to the help you need to overcome your abandonment issue. And don’t ever give up praying for and getting the help you need until your abandonment issue/father wound is healed. Until you are freed from this past issue, you will not be free to fully live and fully love.*

Suggested prayer: “Dear God, thank you that your love for me is totally unconditional and everlasting. Help me to feel secure in your love and get the help I need to feel secure in my human relationships knowing that I have ‘object constancy.’ Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer. Gratefully in Jesus’ name. Amen.”

1. Job 3:25 (NIV).

*Note: For further help read “Healing a Man’s Father Wound” at: http://tinyurl.com/9dse4. The same principles apply to the healing of a woman’s father wound.